Everything’s been making me cry. Â I cried though my entire math class yesterday. Â And it’s a 2 and a half hour class.
I don’t know how to do things anymore. Â It takes me forever to get things done and I feel so fucking stupid. Â I can work on a math problem for hours and still not be any closer to solving it. Â I don’t know how I’m going to pass that test on Monday.
I’m trying another mood stabilizer, but it’ll be another week or two before I’m on a full dose, and even then I don’t really expect it to do anything. Â Except the side effects, which I’m already experiencing. Â Dizziness, weakness, shortness of breath…not fun, but they seem to be fading.
ugh.
I just want my brain back.
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evild—sometimes when those tears flow like blood, hot and slow, there is a cleansing… in regards to the effects of md. stabilizers, they ARE rough…from personal experience of 10 years and counting, the symptoms you described are familiar to me. I sometimes wonder if the antideps. and xanax I’ve been prescribed for this past decade have been the sole reason for what seems to an approaching mental collapse…
with you in spirit… Nicholas
If you want someone to talk to.. i’m right here