I love my lyrical titles :3 makes me different?
I’m terrified about going back to school. Seriously. I don’t think I can do it…. I only just got through the last few weeks of last year thanks to Luis. And now what do I have? A lot of mental health problems and a ‘broken heart.’ Fuck this shit, If only I had the courage to fucking do it. I wouldn’t be here now if I did. Thursday is coming quickly, really nervous about that. And it’s my nephew’s christening on sunday… Bless him. I want to stick around and watch him and my other grow up, But it’s pretty much impossible.
I don’t know what to do, I want someone to make this all better. But I know they can’t…. Why hang around if i’m not happy? Why is that fair?I think it’s time to blow the candle out….
‘Please let me take you,
Out of the darkness and into the light,
Cause I have faith in you,
That you’re gonna make it through another night,
Stop thinking about,
The easy way out,
There’s no need to go and blow the candle out,
Because you’re not done,
You’re far too young,
And the best is yet to come.’
I’m sorry, Nickelback. <3
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Nat.
Do you know how many people aren’t happy in this world? It is true that it is not fair people feel this way But it is never going to be unfair that you stay in this world.
You have a light in you. It burns bright with your personality, your attitude, your kindness, your advice to others. Each time you act yourself around people it grows a tiny bit. Each time you just think about living it glows even brighter. You know deep down that you want to stay to watch your nephew grow. You can be there for him as support and tender care. You are such a great person and you have so much you can offer this world. You have more courage than you know and it is just waiting for the right time to come out. And trust me it will not be when you try to end it. It will be when you decide to start a new chapter in your life. I think it’s going to be a spectacular story 🙂
Titletitletilte. I need someone right now.
I’m with you on the whole ‘terrified of going back to school’ .. I don’t think I’ll make it through this year, I barely made it through the summer..