I want help. I want my parents to know what I have been going through, how depressed I am, how I’ve been/am suicidal. I want them to know that I got my scar from a knife, not from falling down. I want to get better, be happier, I don’t want death to be an everyday thought. I want to enjoy life.
But at the same time, I don’t see how ‘professional help’ will actually help me. I would probably be prescribed anti-depressants. As much as I don’t like being depressed, I feel as though if I don’t have those emotions going through my mind I’ll feel empty. Kind of like a zombie. I’m afraid of feeling nothing. And what if they don’t work, or they have horrible side effects? My parents would probably send me to a therapist too, and I really don’t see how talking to some stranger about my problems will benefit me. I don’t even feel comfortable telling my closest friends things, how will I even begin to tell a therapist?
I’m clearly not getting any better, but I don’t see how seeking help would help me either /:
any suggestions?
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You should try what’s available meds and theropy, u say what if it all doesn’t work…. but what if it does, and your whole life turns around, what do u have to lose from trying it ?
I still don’t know what my opinion is on meds. I’ve been on them for a few years and while I love that Seroquel basically puts me to sleep at night without fail, I worry about the long term effects of it and Prozac.
im really having trouble taking my meds im sick of them.to tell the truth i wouldnt mind comming off completely and hopefully it will be ok if i do cos im through with psyc drugs.for you the first step is to tell someone you trust how you are feeling and see what they think another opinion on how you are wont hurt you but pick someone you trust
A common misconception is that anti-depressants make you “numb.” This isn’t true. Anti-depressants correct chemical imbalances found in the brain. In “normal” people — or people without depression, anxiety or OCD — these chemicals are already in balance. These drugs help people with those disorders (and some others) get their chemicals back to normal. As we both know, “normal” people feel all sorts of emotions — sadness, fear, anger and, fortunately, happiness.
A good comparison would be towards diabetics and insulin. Most people don’t need to take insulin, since their bodies make enough of it naturally. But people with diabetes need to. When they take it, they don’t get any special effects from it, it simply makes them normal.
It’s also really important to remember that therapists, social workers and psychiatrists have heard this all before. If you told your best friend you were suicidal, he or she may have never heard that before. Every mental health professional is well trained in treating very depressed patients. Although for you it’s an unnerving experience, for them, it’s just another day in the office.
I hope the analogies aren’t getting tiring, but it’s kind of like open heart surgery. If you were to perform open heart surgery, you’d freak out. A trained open heart surgeon, on the other hand, wouldn’t.
Lots of people have been forced into therapist offices by friends and family convinced it wouldn’t help. Fortunately, most of them have been wrong! I hope you’re the next one. I really encourage you to “go see someone” — it certainly won’t hurt.
I take prescribed Zoloft. It doesn’t make me numb, it actually allows other feelings other than depression, reside in my mind. If I were you, I would go to the local hospital and tell the nurse at the front desk, I’ve been having thoughts of suicide. They will take it from there. I have been to mental facilities and they’re not that bad and they won’t pry for more information than you give them. You can get help, talk with people who have experience with dealing with similar issues and meet other people with like problems. I have a friend that I met while in a psychiatric center. She has similar problems and we call each other when we’re having a tough time coping. The facility can also explain a lot to your parents and help them understand and adjust to your needs. Don’t be afraid to ask for help. You’ll be glad that you did.
I take Avanza and it dosn’t make me numb just really hungry, try writing your parents a note about all your feelings and problems.