thoughts

You’re not alone in these thoughts, just know that much. I, too, think the same things. “Why am I here?”, “I’m worthless.”, “I’ll never be good enough, smart enough, pretty enough to have a normal, happy life.”.

I hear the same things when I admit to people these thoughts of mine, even my therapist tells me the same thing. Replace them with good thoughts, these thoughts are unfounded and untrue. Well, how would they know, right? They don’t know me. They don’t REALLY know me, not the me that’s trapped inside and doesn’t just whisper these things, but screams them daily. How do you drown those things out with a simple “Oh I’m a wonderful person and everything will be okay.” You don’t.

I wish I had a magical answer for you, and I wish that even though I don’t know you, I could be there in person for you, to hold your hand and let you know you’re not alone. Sometimes for me that’s the hardest, feeling so alone.

All I can say is keep trying. It’s such a hard fight, dealing with these thoughts daily. But we do it. We hang on. Keep hanging on, friend.

Hugs from someone who doesn’t know you, but feels your pain and cares anyway.