I laugh a lot and turn things around
I change pain into laughter
I smile when I should cry
I lie to myself
I lie everyday
Tonight everyone is out partying
I was invited to a few
Boys are texting me
In all honesty
It disgusts me
They just want to fuck
What good is that?
I want a hug
I want someone to hold and someone to hold me
However many times I’ve lied
I might as well just light myself on fire
It’s terrible
Sometimes I wonder if I’ll allow myself to ever show pain again
I wonder if I’ll keep smiling and laughing
It’s a hopeless cause all over
I’ve lost that one person I trust it all to
No matter how many people offer to help
The only one I want is gone
The only one I want won’t come back
The only one I want is in ashes
4 comments
Niel? He’s a reminder a good person does exist for you. You will eventually find a guy that will not pursue you as a fuck buddy but as someone to share affection. Although you may give into temptation, you know deep down that you’re worthy of such love.
hmm… try to convert all the pains into somethin u can enjoy? That’s what u’ve been doin…but..yeah…sometimes we just got tired of pretending.
Put your best smile,thou… u have a beautiful smiles 🙂
A vampire is a cursed person. Everyone hates her, cos she drinks blood, crawls in the dark. But nobody knows why she’s a vampire…she’s not born that way. Nobody tries to find that bite mark on her neck. People are ignorant. That kyÅ«ketsuki only wants to see the sun again, feel his warmth on her pale face, then…..
You know what my username means? Nice… I haven’t seen many people who know, haha…
Very nice writing, kind of proves a point to myself.