Nothing feels real.
A lot of the time I get caught up on details and abstractness. On how we’re just clumps of atoms shoved together in a world which means nothing.
It makes suicide seem much less scary and guilt ridden. People die all the time. I don’t matter. I don’t want to matter. My pain only exists in my head and it’s all arbitrary.
We’re all tending towards dead anyway.
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youre becoming disassociated. its hard but you need to feed your mind more healthy positive things. if you spend alot of time watching videos of death and reading about grizzly things, your mind will just focus on what its being fed. if you start reading and focusing on positive things, you start to feel, you begin to relate. you can begin to feel real again. that you arent just atoms and such. that you are one of the most complex machines with micro computers and electricity in your brain and body and such. then you will begin to think “i am gonna make my life count” because we do all die. but why die just like everyone else? isnt that whats depressing to begin with? we just die? how about” yeah im gonna die… but i helped_______, so i am proud to say i wasnt just another average person”.
Me too. I could go on about how everything is pointless, that nothing matters, and the world is stupid, but that wouldn’t be helping you.
Do what NewDawnFades said, read or learn something new. Although I would skip on the astrophysics, biology, or psychology for a while, because that makes people seem more useless and predictable. … but the world would be a much better place if everybody learned a bit of this.
I know this is a difficult thing to do, but maybe you should go out an socialize? It puts off the negativity, at least for a while.
And most importantly… nice name. I haven’t met another Whovian on this site before. XD
You are asking a philosophical question. Good luck with that.
If a person were to arrive at the conclusion that when they die there will be no conscious element that reminds them of the life that they have lived and that ultimately all life on earth will be of little consequence; what would you say to persuade them that life is worth living? Have they already trumped all arguments to the contrary to the extent that the only reasonable grounds to oppose them would be to suggest that the premise is flawed and wrong. In other words, no one can know what happens when they die and that their life will somehow shape the future of the universe. Alternatively, is it possible to contend that life does not necessarily have to have any purpose or meaning to be worth living without contradicting yourself.
On the other hand, why go to all the trouble of existing in the first place. When you observe something that is aesthetically pleasing, it does not necessarily have to have any other purpose other than for you to appreciate it’s complexity or originality; do you think you could ever learn to look at yourself in that way?
The depersonalization is a choice to deny your own existence. It may stink, but denying it kicks you out of your own driver’s seat. It’s okay to be positive about what we call death. You can do the exact same thing for positive or negative reasons. We conclude our life stinks based on external circumstances, but those circumstances are there to teach us about our true internal nature which is actually pure, and when you choose to feel good & be happy amidst anything, you’ll realize you’re always free to do what ever you feel is best for you. Life is a test for sure, & it will continue but just know what ever you do you can’t get it wrong. Cheers!
I wish I was still pure but the external factors were just too much
It’s not really about the world being stupid. It’s just as though I’ve stepped too far back and I’m looking at the big picture without any meaning or context.
I actually quite like it though.
It just worries me a little because it’s easy to not care anymore about things I remember caring about.
But I’m less anxious this way. And things feel easier.
Ha, I’m studying enough with my uni work. the science probably isn’t helpful for this but oh well.
And yes, while I’m actually with other people (not a majorly common event) it isn’t at the forefront of my mind. But I live in my own head a lot so..
Behindthesmile – Yay, hello fellow whovian 🙂
Duke of Marmalade – I know that life is worth living, in the sense that lots of people get enjoyment and happiness out of lots of things in their life. I appreciate that is deemed the point of life for most people. But when you don’t really get happiness out of anything anymore, it doesn’t really matter.
I think I can relate
I’ve been detaching more and more for the past 6 years .. from my depersonalized POV, I feel like I’ve been chasing after illusions all this time
I’ve gotten to a point where DEATH seems to be my only door to freedom, regardless of my emotional state