I feel worthless, pathetic; like a waste of space. I have nothing to offer this world. I’m a piece of shit. I can’t get a job, can’t get into college, I can’t drive, and I live in a house where my mother can’t afford to feed us. We have no food. Maybe a slice of bologna, but where will that get us? I feel terrible for not helping out. If I were dead, she would have one less mouth to feed. If I were dead, I wouldn’t have to suffer through all of this, through all of the emotions that run through my head. I want this to be over already. Everything. I want to die so badly. I’m useless.
-A.C
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Read Uniques post. He had to pray to a blooming cow.
I understand that it feels like your in an impossible situation. I was told that it would be impossible for me to get the job that I did but I was defiant. Sometimes you have to make sacrifices and get through the hard times. My parents got into substantial debt and for a number of years we experienced the same sort of thing but at the same time had something to work toward so it felt like it wasn’t all for nothing.
It’s ok to be poor. I know that it gets boring sometimes and it’s difficult to survive but as Unique has discovered there are people out there with nothing at all.
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fallencrescendo: Understand feelings are nothing but ‘feelings’. Feeling useless, doesn’t mean you are useless. You have a purpose.