I always thought I was a strong, kind and confident girl who everyone relayed on and came to for help. I was a good friend. But whenever I did something kind, I never got anything in return. Society ruined me. I wanted to put my life on track again but it didn’t seem to work out. People made me nervous. They said words they never thought that I’d over think off at night.
I cry a lot and it’s pretty weird how I fake smile everyday and I pass through the day then, I remember everything at night.
I used to tell people they are strong and life goes on and all that but I think that now, I need someone to tell me that.
I know people make mistakes but it seems like I’m the biggest mistake. I used to live happily. I was happy but what happened?
I have problems that no one would believe. I need a shoulder to cry on and I need a hand to help me up. I’m… scared and lonely.
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You are strong, it’s just that life takes an incredible amount of strength to exist in. Did something happen to make you feel this way? You’ll find far more than one hand to help you up here. We support you, so don’t feel alone. 🙂
thank you and i know that but it’s just unfair 🙁
You said on your other post that no would “waste their time” listening to your problems. It’s never a waste of time to try and help someone, but if you don’t open up and tell someone no one can try to help you.
You always thought you were that kind of girl? Maybe you are, society just acts with self-interest in mind, it often overshadows the individuality of us all. I hate the concept of society, and if I live a full life, I’d probably be the sort to get a creepy, secluded mansion on a hill and I’d scare away everyone because I wouldn’t want them around. I know it sounds unreal, but you are not lost you still feel emotion, and that is incredibly important, even if its bad, hollowness tends to kill more people. I used to be happy too (hence the username). *hug* I understand, I don’t know how much it means to you, but I understand.
yeah, society judges and ruins people. i know that you can’t always be happy but it’s not possible to be sad forever.. *hugs back* and thank you, what you said really helped. x
i too am lonely and scared. but the only words of semi-encouragement that i can seem to come up with at the moment are simply that you are not alone in feeling this way. you may be alone (even when surrounded by others), but your feelings of loneliness are shared here.
some people would believe that their “problems” are more or less serious when compared to others. but comparing your suffering to another persons is irrelevant. we each feel pain, sadness and loneliness in our own way, and we each have every right to feel it.
and to that end, neither should you measure happiness by the ruler of another. happiness is how you choose to feel it, just like sadness.
sorry, that doesn’t really make much sense, but, yeah…
and that’s why the title is called ‘complicated’ because i am complicated and i don’t know how to express my feelings, it’s like i want to scream
i know but it’s hard, like there are many things i never told anyone.. and i don’t have the courage to tell anyone anything but i try
Aw thanks, I hope it’s not possible to be sad forever. If you ever want to someone to email let me know, if not, I understand, after all I’m nothing but a completely random person to you.
no, i would love to talk to a complete stranger and just get to know them better, in fact i’ll send you an email now
my best friend, my wife, my love, my everything… and also my reason for being here now, used to say that she was, “a simple girl with complicated emotions”… i think it was a lyric from a song by aimee mann. realistically though, she was a complicated girl with even more complicated emotions.
trying is all you can do. and i am sorry for sounding harsh and pessimistic, but just don’t allow yourself to be too discourages when people let you down. in my opinion and experience, they eventually always will.
if you need an person to hear you though, and listen with no judgements or agenda, feel free to email me anytime. same as my username @gmail
oh no, you actually gave me advice. i hope you’re happy with your wife and yeah people will always hurt you.. and i would love to talk, thank you
Ok let me know when you have fully sent it, my email has a habit of not picking up emails, at least with this account.
okay, i just sent it and never mind my email, it’s not my personal so..
… i was happy with my wife. she wasn’t happy with me. that’s why she left me a year ago (one year exactly tomorrow actually) and why i have decided to end my life. because honestly, my life already ended a year ago… i am only still here because i made her a promise that i have to keep.
long story, but thanks anyway ;(
oh, i’m so sorry. life is sucky but i hope you’re okay 🙂
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