Sometimes I feel like I can’t breathe, like I’m slowly suffocating. Sometimes my heart clenches up and I just get lost in the pain. Sometimes I cry for no reason, and no one notices. Sometimes I tremble and shake and I lose control of myself. Sometimes I slip up and for a second I feel so vulnerable and exposed. Sometimes I wonder who would care if it ended for me and I stop living this lie. Sometimes I say things to try to reach out, but they don’t seem to be listening or just don’t care. Sometimes I disappear and no one looks for me. Sometimes I curl up into myself and just try to write my pain away. Sometimes it works. But sometimes it doesn’t…….And sometimes it’s not enough.