I tried to speak out today, but you how things never really go as planned. They didn’t understand what I was trying to say and just brushed it off. I felt so small and so sick to my stomach. I went home and I did it again even though I was trying not to anymore. I hurt myself again. I hadn’t done it in awhile so I had forgotten how it felt, but I couldn’t stop myself. My hand is trembling as I write this and I’m just trying to hold myself together as much as I can. But I can’t anymore, I’m just so tired of […]
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Sometimes I feel like I can’t breathe, like I’m slowly suffocating. Sometimes my heart clenches up and I just get lost in the pain. Sometimes I cry for no reason, and no one notices. Sometimes I tremble and shake and I lose control of myself. Sometimes I slip up and for a second I feel so vulnerable and exposed. Sometimes I wonder who would care if it ended for me and I stop living this lie. Sometimes I say things to try to reach out, but they don’t seem to be listening or just don’t care. Sometimes I disappear and no one looks for me. […]
I just dont understand anything anymore. I dont get how people do the things they do and how completely self absorbed they can be. Hello im right here so why cant you see that.Arent I something too? Nowadays I dont even think so anymore. Looking at myself and just despising what i see, im so tired of feeling that way.Each time i hold a knife or a bottle of pills, i cant help but think of why not and how release is right there at my fingertips.I stop each time because wouldnt i be missed by someone?But i dont really think so cuz they dont even bother to know the […]