Everytime I get with my friends, they start to “joke” around me. They would insult me or say something about me. It really hurts even though they are do not mean it. But sometimes, I feel like they do mean it. When they say something like “you suck at everything” and say it is a joke, I feel like they really me that I suck at everything. They would also get angry with me if I get confused or suck at playing a sport (I’m male). I don’t fight back because I really don’t think that adding fuel to the fire helps. They already hate me, I don’t want them to have this feeling of wanting to kill me. I just want to die without blaming or hurting anyone because I know how it feels like dying from a heart attack or an accident I did. I also feel like I’m pulling everyone down. I wish I wouldn’t care about it but I can’t help it. Everyday (Monday to Sunday) I get this feeling and each day worse. I don’t know what to do. For me, right now, suicide is the best option.
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Strangely and somewhat sadly, this just seems to be the way most young people interact. I’m not sure if it’s a recent cultural trend or if it’s always been this way, but when i was in highschool that’s what i observed everywhere. “Friends”, picking on one another in a, sometimes playful, sometimes hurtful manner. It just seems to be how teenagers interact. If you feel like it’s more than just “joking” and it really hurts you maybe you could try to get them to stop.
Do you laugh and joke along with them? Try this, next time they say something that hurts you don’t laugh with them or joke back. I’m not saying pout, but put on a serious face and just keep doing whatever you’re doing. Don’t get angry just let it phase past you and eventually they may realize that it’s not something you find amusing and stop. I’m not saying you do, but if you keep laughing along with them it’ll just tell them that what they;re saying is A okay.
If they really do hurt you, then it may be time to find new friends.
I’ve tried anything
Telling them to stop: they’ll just repeat what I said in a foolish way
I keep trying to tell myself its a joke: They push it one level up
I ignore their jokes: they’ll just mimic me
and every highschooler knows that from highschool, it is really hard to get new friends. There are some that take you in, take advantage of you, then leave you. Some of them don’t even talk to you.
Well, i don’t know how your “friends” are, but if it isn’t possible for you to get them to understand how serious you are, or if they just don’t care, i guess you’d either have to learn to not let it bother you or leave them. Is it really worth it to have “friends” if they only hurt you?
They’re only the flippant remarks of unempathetic highschoolers. I doubt anything they say has any merit. Be confident in yourself and let those meaningless words brush past you.