Not yet, probably, but it will be how I go away eventually.
I don’t connect with anyone in the way I’d want to. People drift in and out, but mostly out, and I always feel like they don’t genuinely like me. We don’t connect. Sometimes they find me funny, sometimes maybe even smart and charming, but mostly it seems as though they don’t care about me. They don’t care for me, and I’m scared to be around them.
I have dreams, and I’ve done some things to make them come true, but if it doesn’t pan out, and if it turns out that life isn’t going to be anything that I’ve hoped for… I just don’t see the point.
I drink too much, I stress out about everything, but mostly about myself. I just don’t get this world. I don’t know if the world gets me either.
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people drifting in and out your life isn’t a bad things, it shows you who your real friends are, i’ve seen friends i’ve helped in fist fights drift out, my dad leave, school friends, but in the end i had that one friend who’s stuck by my side for over 10 years and even though it’s just one person i know someone cares. i have dreams to and i’ve tried so hard to attain them but they didn’t pan out either at least not yet but just keep working for it and one day you will attain them