I finally have the trigger that makes me manic enough to not give a fuck. and now obviously the trains dont ride anymore. Â why do i live in such a pathetic place. I should have been two hours early. Or 4 hours later.
Ok think fast: what other things do i have closeby that can make me kill myself. Do we have bleach in the house? No I dont think so.
I cant even take 1 pill and od-ing is so unlikely that its not even an option.
more options? Â FUCK.i should be able to come up with more things. Â why dont we have a high building i could jump from.
What should I do now?
ding ding ding: we have a winner. I remember I have lots of rope lying around from work. fuck. I should have learned to tie a knot before I got into a manic episode.