I guesse today is just one of those days you know when ur head hurts and u don’t feel like eating but when u go down to eat dinner with ur “family” and hen u end up eating fast and run up stairs to he bathroom and end up throwing it all up. I felt this coming but I could reasite I had too. And then ur “family” calls upstairs that we’re leaving in 5 mins and u have to go so u panic and r makeup is ruin and I have 3 mins to fix myself. I can’t live like this anymore, hiding acting like I’m some one who has everything becaus I’m not anymore, I’ve changed and it’s probally fOr worst. And it’s starting to hurt when I laugh the pain is just a rembinder that I’m not. Please if you read this you can make it though is but I guess I wouldn’t, good luck too all:) I’m probally am going to do a post before I commute sucide I just have to find a time…. Byee