Absolute mess

Ok so I haven’t posted in a while but anyways holy ************. I’m shocked I’ve made it this far. My birthday is in 2 weeks I am not happy about it cuz every time I have a birthday it usually adds one more fucked up thing I will do to myself/: hooray! -_- I always had begged for my parents to divorce and in September they finally did I was happy at the time cuz my dad and I got in a huge argument and I hated him for it. Now I was breaking this week at my moms house she favors my sister she makes me do everything for her while she goes on Facebook and when I consider talking to her she tells me to get the fuck away from her but if my sister talks they laugh til the world ends. I’m broken. My friends are worried cuz they notice a different me now every other week the weeks I’m at my moms this week I’m so stressed I’m almost crying in class very say and it scares my friends they say they love me to death cuz I’m the happy one well it’s true except I’m too depressed now. I realized after five girls asked me out I don’t have a chance with guys now I have a girlfriend who is the bestest person ever we have way to much in common were like sisters XD I spend every second I can around her I love her. My “bf” is on my nerves and I’m horrible at breaking up that I’m just ignoring him now and hopin he will get the idea. Well cuz of my moms behavior I now live with my dad full time which pissed her off as well as my siste but oh we’ll I feel a lot happier. Then I read a post on here from my friend. I thought he was my bet friend?????? Now he is saying I’m never happy? I am too! Not always but I’m not never happy. I dont know I assume he doesn’t wanna be best friends anymore but then again I’ve been fuckin annoying this week and make everything as big deal I know. So I hope I’m wrong. I’m tired. It’s been a long few days /: