Hello.
Well let’s just put it this way, for a while now I havn’t been feeling like myself. Actually for the past month or so. And I’m starting to change in a bad way. I used to love hanging out with friends and my boyfriend and family. but now days all I want to do is sit in my room alone and do nothing but stare at a blank television screen. I’ve lost intrest in a lot of things I loved before. Like my favorite thing to do is bake. I love it, it’s peaceful, yet takes a lot of time and energy if you do it all by scratch like myself.
I always used to smile when i’m upset. but now I dont even try to hide it. I have been pushed beyond my anger level so many times by so many people my emotions shut down after a while when i get past my point now. Like I feel nothing. no anger, sadness, happiness. nothing.
And I’ve been thinking these thoughts for a while now, maybe a month or so. I don’t really seem to be getting any happier no matter what i do or anybody else does. Reality hurts now, friends dont help, and it hurts me even worse when i get so frusterated and depressed i snap and ***** at my family memebers, because later on I regret it and know they did nothing wrong. So I’m just trying to understand. I dont like going to councelors for help like my friend told me to do, I kinda blew it off, they dont help in my view. So is there anything I can try to do to make myself happier for the time being until I can try to find some help for this issue? I can’t stand not being happy anymore, it exhausts me so much, I havn’t eaten in a few days because my stomach isn’t up for food when I’m depressed.
But any advise is welcome.
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It’s a good thing that you are looking for help to make yourself feel better. In fact, it’s a very positive thing. It sounds like you have some kind friends who care about you as well.
Was there anything that happened to you to make you feel this way, or did it happen just out of the blue?
What was your experience with councelors? Perhaps you didn’t find one that was right for you. Your general physician might have some suggestions, it never hurts to ask.
It tends to switch off and on. I’ve had some issues with Family and boyfriend for a few months now. And sometimes I’ll have random depression so bad i can’t really stand myself.
And my experience? Let’s just put it this way, I tried speaking to my school councelor once, and she didn’t get to me until almost five months later, AFTER I signed a slip to go see them.
And I went after my parents splt up and it didn’t really help me then either.