I hurt myself today to see if i still felt the pain.. You didn’t know what you were thinking.. Neither did I.. I wasted my weekends on you.. You say your sorry? I don’t think so.. Sorry isn’t good enough anymore.. You never meant to hurt me, that might be true but do you really think i will believe you after you did that to me? I know I was dumb to do it.. I thought you really did like me, but now I know it was all a lie. You date me for 3 days, have sex with me.. then dump me 2 days later, say ‘oh I just want to be friends, My friend begged me to date you’ BULL SHIT TRISTAN. GO FUCK YOURSELF. Oh i’m sorry? Did i piss you off. Great. I hope i did. “Oh you have no reason to hurt yourself” Another BULLSHIT. You just fucked me over, Draven fucked me over, Christian fucked me over after 3 months. mhh.. My family hates me. You know how I spend my thanksgiving with my fathers side? BY MY FUCKING SELF. Ash, Randi, Cloey, Mak, & Pia all sit in the damn kitchen don’t say a fucking word to me. Yeah fuck off. My dad hates me, told me he didn’t want a thing to do with me. Funny. How he tries to be ‘best buddies’ with me, no. fuck off. Honestly this is why I cut.. My family, friends, GUYS.
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I can relate to this, it’s hard when someone does that to you yes. But I guarantee there will be someone to come along to make it all go away. Who knows how long but someone will come along and tell you everything is fine. Your hurting right now but it’ll get better.
Ah I don’t think cutting is the answer for you hurting yourself only brings on more pain than the pain you’re dealing with and eventally that pain builds up in you become in search of a greater pain and that just might be the last bit of pain you ever feel.. the last thing you ever see yourself alone once again no one around but if you give me a chance i will be there for you
i can also relate to this. being hurt in that way feels terrible. as for family, when i see others who have it worse then i do i feel stupid for whining about my family. cutting helps ease the pain of it all. i dont see a problem with it.