“Just GO AWAY!” I hear that all the time. People don’t realize how much I actually think about ‘going away’, but not in the same sense they’re thinking… I think about killing myself probably 3-4 times a day. Sometimes more if the day is crappy, like this one.
I try to be funny, make other people smile. It makes me feel as if I have a purpose. But recently, people don’t seem the slightest amused or interested in me any more. I can’t even make an opinion anymore. My friend wears Uggs, and I’ll crack a joke like, “Those aren’t boots, they’re slippers!” And they all get extremely annoyed. “Why do you have to complain about everything! You’re getting so petty as to complain about HER SHOES! Just GO AWAY!”
I don’t feel as if anyone wants me around anymore. There’s nothing left for me here. I just want to go. Somebody calls me LostAngel, but I think it’s about time to fly away…
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People don’t mind when you poke fun at yourself…they don’t mind when you poke fun at society…but they do mind when you poke fun at them. The slipper joke? Not funny…you were making fun of someone else…and who knows…she could have been very proud of her slippers…haha…it could be the most positive thing she’s had for ages…you don’t know…so you attacked her self-worth…that is mean.
I don’t think you are mean…I think perhaps you are a wee bit insensitive though. Instead of getting mad…why not listen to what people are telling you…and try again.
Nobody is perfect…but that doesn’t mean we can’t try to be a little moreso ..now does it?
Peace
Amakua