i dont think any of my friends like me

I hear you. You just want to feel something nice; no more pain inside- that’s why you cut, isn’t it? Try not to “out-think” your friends- just be grateful that they DO keep you company sometimes- it’s better than no one at all even pretending they care. I’m sure lots of people are worried about you, however, no one wants to talk about your possible suicide, because they are too scared, the silly sods. Try to talk to your most trusted friend or an online, anonymous counsellor- if you get some of the hurt out on the table it might be easier to deal with. You could give another human a CHANCE of improving your outlook. Try to value what is unique about you, then someone else might find you attractive because of that unique trait. As they say “Try to be yourself; everyone else is taken”. I’m struggling too, but I’m determined to survive Christmas and all the asshats who interfere with my plans to be a bit happy.