What the hell am I supposed to do now? I want someone to kill me. I want to kill myself. I don’t care what happens. I just want to die. I would be happy if I could leave this earth. I hate it here. I hate my life. I hate myself. The only thing stoping me is the thought of anything going wrong. I have tried to kill myself before, but nothing happened. I learned some about trying to bleed to death…you always stop bleeding after a while. I don’t want them to judge me because of my decisions. But I know that won’t happen. I just don’t want to be saved, cause it feels like something’s eating away at my soul. I can’t do this anymore. But I have to make it two more years. Only if they knew…
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hey i know you dont know me but one i want to ask you if you die how can you be happy. two are you a cutter or was that a one time thing. three if you failed already than there must be a reaason why you are still hear have you thought of that and four if there is something eatting away at you thin i am sure you dont want to die but you just arnt sure what to do
o i forgot to say i am hear if you want to talk
yes i agree with the last guy, but im sure that does not make sense to you now at the condition you are currently facing. tell us your problem, maybe we can sort it out in present tense. 🙂
I just know that wherever I go after this I’ll be a hell of a lot happier there and I have cut for about 4 years now (on and off). I like you iflifesucksthinyoudie no homo of course.
Its kwel and thanks but death is no answer
Pain and death isn’t your answer, knowing Jesus Christ is however – all of your suffering and misery, he alone can sympathize with. I believe he wants to save you not just from cutting yourself, but he wants to give you the reason why you were made to live. To know his love for you which goes beyond every horror you have faced on this Earth. He knows your way my friend, and he loves you so dearly. Cry out to him, he wants to take your burdens and wants to provide everything you have ever been looking for. He was my answer in this dark world, I hated my life, I hated everything about it, no one loved me, but He alone changed my statements around, “I love my life, I love people, I love Him, and I love you.” It is because I realized how much he loved me that he transformed my life when i gave my life to him. He is your answer too my friend, give him a shot and he will fill you with hope and joy and peace.