pros and cons of counseling- help me please!

I’m a senior in high school and I have weekly meetings with my school counselor so she can check in on me. Right now she is trying to convince me to receive more intensive counseling from an outside source. I absolutely detest the idea of counseling. Last year I was forced by the school counselor to go. At first I hated it, so they switched my counselor and people had me convinced it would be okay, I was actually going to try it, but when we went back my dad lied. He said I made it up for attention, I didn’t lose weight, I was fine. It was embarrassing. The thing is, my dad watched my clothes become too big for my body, he saw my bones stick out, he heard me throwing up and then listened to me deny it, he saw the cuts on my leg! He was ashamed of me, and I thought I was a bad person for needing help. I promised I would never go back, I would never ever need counseling again. However, here I am, in the same place again. This time around it’s more for anxiety than eating, so my school counselor isn’t allowed to call my parents just yet (my life isn’t in danger as far as she knows.) I talk to her every Monday. Last Monday she told me to make a pros and cons list or getting counselor, we’re going to discuss it next week. So I started, but I need some help. What have been pros and cons of counseling for you guys? The cons I have covered, that was the easy part. But other than the obvious “it could help me,” I’m stuck!