Who actually am I?

Who am I?
I’m eliza. 15. And more and more everyday I find myself hating myself for how I am.
I feel worthless,
Fat,
Ugly
I want to be anyone but me. I hate it. I hate feeling this way but it’s true though.
I don’t feel good anymore,
I used to be happy, before HE came along
Fucked me up majorly
I cut all the god damn time and I’m sick of feeling like I’m so worthless all the time :/
I dot know who I can trust, my family are never there for me, I want to be happy living in my own body and home but I don’t know when that will be. I’m trying to stay strong and I tell others too, but it’s so hard for yourself.