I have been holding on for too long in my life. Since the age of four I have been hiding who I really am. A boy trapped in a girl’s body. I want to be free but my trans/homophobic parents/society aren’t letting me. I cant do this anymore. I may seem alive but I’m already dead. I cannot take another year as a girl, it tortures me, it pains Hunter being trapped deep inside this body. I see my self as a butterfly but I am still in my coocoon and I want out but I know I can’t. I can’t do this anymore, I have been holding on saying to myself things will get better, it’s getting worse. I love everyone I hate everyone. I love myself I hate myself. I can’t do this anymore. I want to end my life.
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Find support with people who feel or felt exactly like you. There are many transgendered people who have been where you are…hearing how they made it and changed their gender might give you hope. there are many people in our society who are very accepting of transgendered folks and diversity and welcome it. Do not think just because you have not found those folks yet, they are not out there. I know there are a lot of support groups via the computer. There is one on facebook called Wipe Out Homophobia. Be who you are and if anyone does not like it, it is their problem, not yours. I wish you all the best.
Thank you and it’s hard. I live in a homophobic/conservative place. It’s like those of the lgbt world are hiding.
Honey… Im in the same position as you are..I know your pain.. Or I can feel it anyway. I have commited suiside and i know how its to feeling worthless and wantin to end your life:| But let you know a thing..Im here. I may be a stranger to you,but thats all right..You can talk to me:) Im not a therapist but i swear you,I LL LISTEN, I LL CARE:|..Please,stay strong♥
Thank you so much and I am trying, for the sake of all my loved ones.
Hunter, what’s wrong with just accepting yourself the way that God created you and living your life as a girl? There’s nothing wrong with being a ‘tomboy.’
Because I know that is not who I am. I wish I could and have tried but it caused me great pain to myself and others.
Hey Hunter.
I am certain you are beautiful just as you are. There is a huge world out there of LGBT people with the same problems, but who have found love and acceptence and freindship.
So please do not harm yourself over gender issues. I know it looks like a huge problem, but step back and see, maybe it’s not such a big problem. People need you and need you to accept yourself. Be proud of who you are.
You’re right and I just need to find those people though you don’t hear a lot of transgenders but supporters and those in the lgbt circle is a definitly