I’ve checked this website out for a few months now, just browsing after stumbling upon it by accident.
At least, if anyone ever asks why it’s in my history, that’s what I’ll say..
Well, the just browsing part is true, but the coming here as an accident, is not. Honestly? I’ve been depressed for a really long time. And I’m still young… I had a really rough childhood and had to basically raise myself. I’m too scared to talk specifically about my life here…but it’s just been so,so hard and I don’t know what to do anymore. I used to say to myself that I could make it through this, but I’m still here trying to fight it years later. And I know I can’t do it.
 I don’t know how much longer I can honestly do this for before I break down completely. People try to help me sometimes, saying they want to and that they feel they need to, but that isn’t even what I want. I just want someone to care. Because those people who want SO badly to try to help? They give up. Quickly. I want people to stop telling me that things will get better..I don’t think I can wait that long. I wait for someone, SOMEONE to say “Hi” to me. But no one IMs me, no one talks to me, no one IMs me. Ever. I’m so scared to be alone. I wish someone would tell me they loved me; not even in an intimate way. Just in an “I care about you” way. Is there anyone out there that will ever say it to me? I feel like I’ve been waiting for it forever and that I should give up the false hope. I just want to talk to someone…to be myself around them. But it’s pointless..who would ever want to talk to me? A girl who sits around being pessimistic and depressing all day.
Pathetic.
I don’t know what to do anymore. And I’m really scared no one will respond to this…but I have to write this anyway,before I go crazy.
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well HEY i am not a pessimistic girl and if you want to talk i am hear i know somewhat of how you are feeling haha even if i am a stranger you dont know.
One thing I’ve learned is that tuis site is really great for bringing up your spirits and airing stuff out. Just talk; you’re gonna feel better. Tell us your story, a lot of the people here have been through similar situations.
Feel your pain you feel mine go inside each other’s minde’s see what we find. Donnie.
Omg i love that song and i also love space bound!!!!
ya tell us your story, we all have the same things going on in our lives that’s why we are here,
Space bound tune. Recovery word
….I can’t say my story. It is a little different from most. If someone I know were to find this…especially on this kind of website, They’d know it’s me. And that makes me really scared to talk about it here.
I don’t have the slightest idea of how you feel . ( I mean come on I’m tired of the ” I KNOW HOW U FEEL” SORT OF REPLIES we just can’t know how someone feels simply because we’re not there ) just felt like saying HI! so I had to jump in.
HI !
If you want someone to talk, you can try me. I won’t tell you any of this “it gets better” bullshit. Only when I REALLY think that somethink will get better. But primarily I will listen to you and try to understand you. Share with you my story. Be open with you, and make you feel that you can be open with me, etc. So if you want someone to talk online, someone that will really care for you, maybe we can work something out 🙂
Yoorek_TheBest@interia.pl – I’m a foreigner, hence the strange mail.
I’m not here for sympathy. Someone in my family thinks I’m crazy and is trying to put me in a psychologist’s office. I don’t want to go there. I went for a year wanting help but the lady didn’t help me at all. I do feel alone and I’m not here for someone to feel bad for me. That is not my intention at all. I just wanted someone to relate to feeling alone or depressed. That, I assure you , is the sole reason that I am here. Thanks.
I care.
Hope you find peace in knowing now (or soon realizing) that you are not alone in your thoughts and feelings. Many here can relate. You can always say as much or as little as you want…but know that you’re not alone.
hi. I’m not gonna say i know what your going through because i don’t. Everyone experiences things in different ways and they cope in different ways. But i will tell you this… I care. I know i dont know you and i may never know you but i care. My best friend has been suicidal for a long time and i have never once given up on him and i never will. email me carissaporter95@gmail.com. i promise i will never give up on you either.
with love,
Carissa
I won’t go for the ‘I know how you feeling’ thing, but I hope things get better for you.
I’m new here, so I can’t say much about this place but I hope it helps