Hey guys,
I havent been on here in a very long time but i find it necessary because i started cutting again and its worse than before. My boyfriend said that if i cut one more time that he was going to leave me and i couldnt stop myself and i cut and now today he told me that he wants to talk to me face to face probably so he can break up with me. I am dreading going over there. I didnt just come out and say it either he took my phone and read my messages because i was talking about the cutting with my friend on my phone and he saw the messages. I dont know how i can go on without him. He is my everything. I we have been together almost six months and i know its not a long time but we have known each other for 7 years prior so it feels like we have been together for a very long time. I just dont know what to do anymore. I hate being me. It is so frustrating. Why cant i just be normal like everyone else? why do i have to be such a burden?
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i did 2000 cuts on friday. i am up to 3400 more cuts today.
he has an issue with cutting, then HE is not accepting you for who you are. I know it may not be ideal. But isnt the ultimate vow to accept you in sickness and in health, good times and bad.
Sorry if this is too crude… but he is not good enough for you. Speaking as a guy – he is lowered the bar for the rest of us. You need to find a guy who will accept you with flaws as well as the great parts.
Good luck.
Well, I would look at this in two fronts.
1. Even though I don’t know your bf, I am really surprised that for 7 years, he did not know about your situation and he is just now “not” accepting you for who you are
2. Speaking from experience, I was once in a situation where my gf at the time was a cutter. I did not understand the reason behind it, and was indeed frustrated with such continuing behavior. However, as I have grown more mature, I have come to a better understanding as to why cutting was a way to maintain control and feel peace within. I don’t condone it, but I certain understand much better the reasons behind your action. I won’t judge you, but if I am there, I would simply give you a big hug. It just takes time. I would say that you two are not meant for each other at this time. If he is the right person, it will take him time to be more mature to be right for you.
Take care and peace.
hi dear,
i know what you are going through.i have been through a similar situation.but now listen to me nicely.just stay cool an calm.okay and ask your bf what he really wants.don’t force him to stay with you.with time you will definetly stop cutting.just try to be strong dear and things will be perfect.if you need help do tell me and mail me…
listen i can really help you.believe me dear.because i have been through a similar patch of time.listen inhellut@gmail.com this is my mail id.
just talk with me and i can really help you believe me.i think so..please try to understand when i was in your situation someone else had helped me.so i want to do that for you..
I am so sorry for your situation! I hate people who use this kind of punishment on others they apparently care about. That’s not caring. I am so sorry for you. Yet I do hope since you love your BF, that you won’t break up with him… I don’t mean to sound harsh but he’s a very selfish person for saying this to you. Leaving you isn’t a supportive measure at all.
My brother won’t talk to me because my life isn’t as good as he apparently wants it to be. He thinks his love and care about me has lead him to this decision, whereas I know that he’s really a hateful bastard who only pretends to care. He can be very nice but he’s still an asshole. But I won’t keep rambling on, just that my reaction to his nasty ways was to disown him. I’m sorry that your boyfriend is treating you this way and I hope he realises that you love him a lot. Tell him you want his support, that not talking to you isn’t the kindest way to solve problems etc.
Good luck!
I used a razor for the first time today. I liked it alot. It didnt take as much pressure to bleed. i bled a lot. i think im gunna keep this method.
Off topic, but you have the coolest surname ever. Do you know Anton Corbijn? Genius. Absolute genius.
I hope your boyfriend doesn’t leave you. Maybe he needs reminding of all the great things about you.
That isnt my real name. i made it up incase someone i know comes across the website and tells somebody that i think and act like this. but thank you anyways. and i hope my boyfriend stays with me too. its gunna be extremely hard without him.