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i feel like im running out of options.

my mom was killed when i was 1, and my dads a dick who wants nothing to do with me or my little bro. my stepmother has been abusive to me my whole life, and even though ive been living away from her for years now im still afraid of her and she still tries torun my life.

for the past 2 years ive been so depressed and anxious i can barely get out of bed, let alone function like a regular fucking person. im going to loose my job at payless because i just plum cant talk to people without having a mini panic attack or a stomachache, and i know everyone who sees me like that thinks its hilarious.

im failing school b/c my depression i cant focus i cant sleep im loosing so much weight i need help or i know im going to try and kill myself again i dont want to get to that point but its a feeling thats beckoning me i have no money to go to therapy or anything for help… i have no family to turn to and my depression has put a gap between me and my friends i havent even spoken to any of my friends in months.

all i have is my bf and i feel like if i tell him everything im feeling he’ll dump me and i’ll be truly and utterly alone.