I dont want to have to lie anymore, I dont want to pretend im well when im not, what i want is to expose my deepest wishes.
That would cause a stronger prison and I couldnt bare have my wings totally ripped away from me.
So sad I just cant scream my happiness to the four corners of the world.
But ill try something small which i hope will ease my pain: I will test my therapist and deal with whatever comes from her!
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So…you’re going to tell your therapist your deepest wishes? If so, I am truly impressed by your courage–sharing such things face-to-face would terrify me…
it terrifies me… i dont anything to change because im pretty sure of what i want. it terrifies me, but ill have to face this fear too! not too sure if its the right thing but been feeling like i must. ugh! it terrifies me bad…
I think it is definitely the right thing to do. 🙂 I just remembered a quote that might be helpful: “courage is not the absence of fear, but the realization that something is more important than fear” Good luck! 🙂