Twice in the past week I’ve tried to hang myself.
How naive of me, to think it would be so easy?! Yeah, it’ll be painful but I’ll only feel it for 5minutes I thought. I even got the right measurements for an immediate neck break and everything. (thanks to an anonymous website)
Yet I am stopped by the simplest things. The first time nearly happened spontaneously in a toilet cubicle at school …okay that sucked. I got interrupted by a fucking teacher anyway. T_T
Then I tried in my bedroom when no-one was around. And the peg snapped. I was so close. Instead I tried hanging myself lying down (won’t explain how but I think it’s obvious). I always considered jumping in the past too. Only from my house roof which I can get onto because climbing out the loft hatch wasn’t really a challenge. Only thing is I would need to fall head first on the concrete and that is unbelievably difficult for me-I can’t even do it in water let alone a drive.
I sometimes wonder how you guys even do this. I wanted to avoid overdose because vomiting scares the shit out of me but I’m becoming desperate to do anything.
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try plastic bag its better to die is gain
Please stop trying to hang yourself. Why do you want to end your life so badly? Maybe all those interrupted suicide attempts is a sign that it is not your time to go yet? Don’t look at it as a failure on your part, rather as a sign that you have a purpose here on earth. Dont give up man.
Don’t kill yourself! Like Dave_N said, there signs! All your lifes problems are temporary but killing yourself is perminate. Just keep holding on, if you need to talk I’m always here
Oh god! It’s not bad to kill or euthanize yourself, you’ll end up dying anyway, and if theres a problem you have to solve, but “can’t” solve, death is the solution. Come on, the only reason you are saying things like “Don’t kill yourself” is because you can’t fully relate.