No one really knows how bad it is. No one. I’m supposed to have a good life-I’ve never been through anything traumatic, I’ve never lost a loved one. I have no right to feel this way, yet it’s the only thing I can think about. I just want to die. I don’t want to go through this anymore. I don’t belong anywhere. My “friends” all have other friends. I haven’t hung out with anyone in months. The guy I’ve been in love with for 3 years is using me to make out. I eat lunch in the bathroom at school and hide in back corners whenever possible. I can’t get out of bed, I can’t talk to people, I can’t make this better. I hurt, I hurt all the time, and there’s nothing I can do about it. Just let me die.
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You “can” talk about it…..your doing it now, so just keep talking.
i did this for 2 moths and i know it may be bad to do but i whent the other way after the jantor fownd me trying to drown my self in the sink i came out fists swinging i beet the shit out of 2 guys and the 3ed hasnt botherd me i still fell like i whant to end it but it was 1 thing off my plate and now i can take down my next problem try it you never know it may not be the same thing but tack the same aproch as i did and it will be so much beter good luck xx
I have suicidal thoughts as I keep talking to you right now, I have them for 4-5 years now, I have depression AND OCD, I’m from Greece, jobs here are nowhere to be found, and stuff are getting difficult day by day, and look I decided to survive this, I know how you feel, I feel it too, right now, I know you don’t believe your pain matches anyone elses, but thats an illusion, I feel the same, and everyone who wants to kill themselves feel the same too! I was an outsider at school too, once I lost a class because I wasn’t going to school, and I had to face all those new kids while I was the one who lost the class, I felt so bad back then, I had nobody to talk to, I even became really pathetic, I tried to force myself into other friends, but they ignored me, I’m still here, I won’t die because some scambags didn’t know how to be friends with me, you are different, everyone is different, so what? you want a friend? I’m right here email me at gemini150688@gmail.com and we can talk…