powders

ther are 1000 of powders and poshions all i fear and dred some will stop me from criying some will kill me stone dead all the pills and sringis deth opone ther lips

botels jars and a old cigar liter my old room wile ill fly whay up hiy in the mist and gloom all i see arownd me the twinkling of stars i see my 2 frends and famaly crying rownd a box the toom stone said “he is dead to his frends his name was will now hes gon this is his song up an till he toke the pill”

i see all my famaly all 3 in a cherch were that morn till the dorn when thay chere alowd “the dick is daed snapt is his haed hill never work agen” and my frends ther crying again this is what one said “its all a liy hill never diy he was just to yong” and as for she she said nothing but shes the only one i loved

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i dont know what to do aney more im lost in a sea of ters and blood who i thort were my frends are gon bar 2 a girl i love and my now best mate my famly hate me im a diapont ment to them thay dont see how hard it is and at shool it not like a amercan film hiy school it a all boys british secondery shool with more ruf than uper class sorter like green street but with less knives coke and heowin and more dope and smoking thers a boy ther who never speeks not even to freeks like me hes bulled badly by techers by evrey one thay tell him hes ugly and if you toch  him your hand will get gangreen and when i stuck up for him ones thay all most stuck something in me there thats the ferst time i triyd to kill my self in a sink and from ther it got worse and now im here talking to you on here well ther you go 10 atemps on my life later and im here and slowly like inch by inch im geting beter