hannah93,
you’re a sweet lovely girl, just needing baby steps toward some positive and effective directions.
Your mother said she needs you to live for her sake, or she’ll die too.
From that can see her immature of emotions in saying things like that, rather she strengthens herself in getting love from men, from groups of dating parties, without knowing the most needed is to deal with the real issue, is with you, just short trips may be, with you strolling in the park to see people play, the chance to have mother and daughter’s talk, to create the environment of “togetherness” in homely feel, and the solidification of love in mutual bond.
Placebo is what people soon adapted to. Men to your mother may just be it. But an issue may be created and the question whether it’ll last is always there.
The trick there is mainly resting on if a chance be there to unravel the same hurtful feelings you “both” have.

blackqwert,
I don’t know if it’s true you literally have face disfigured.
But one thing is certain that you’re always trying to gain face by manipulating in hurting people here.
“life sucks thin u die” is so nice to involve herself as your victim in order to help you, and I don’t think you could have a friend like her in real life, and now you saw how she’ve stated in her recent story that her hate aroused. It’s hatred she can’t dissolve, and she just can’t take any more to digest. I’d very much like to see you be empowered, and not letting her die saving you. As you don’t suck others dry to gain nourishment like a baby to a mother anymore. It can only be termed as selfish while being a grown-up.
Pleasures derived from inflicting suffering to others to gain own comfort is just evil.
The real pleasures there are to last in mind and stay without the guilt of an evil feel.
And just don’t act like the maniac to chase after his son with a hatchet to hack, just on behalf of hearing the voice of God or devil.
Or like the ones glorify themselves in school shooting randomly at people like ducks.
It’s just a poorly manipulating act demonstrated to prove oneself hurt as if being once bullied and weak and couldn’t well getting over it.
Creating anger to solve a problem is sometimes right to empower oneself to surf on a pushing force. But creating that just to make a new issue is just unwise.

unknownname00,
it’s rare that people could actually leave their place of hurting, and really went far, as you did to travel to the other end of world, China. And it’s interesting to know, did you get what you expected ? Found work or just a travel ?
Your eyes opened ? What made you not travel to the world again, away from the misery so to speak.
You said have never married. Sound like you’re a woman, still longing for at least a marriage once. Well, there’s no need to rest your thought on that. One doesn’t marry for marriage’s sake.
Marriage is only best to be when one has at least the “easy feeling of comfort” while with the other partner.
You can see there are/were many people stuck within, and you should feel glad to be safe without that worry instead.
Feeling lonely as a free single is far better than lonely within one marriage.

life sucks thin u die,
I know you like to be with people. But don’t deplete yourself without own energy. May be download some movies to watch to entertain your mind, as your mind needs food too.
And don’t depend too much on your family. Sometimes it’s just not your say alone can stick them close. Have to let go of that thought to make yourself easier.
If someone stuffed his foot into your face in a hatred form, they’re displaying an extreme disrespect. And you should have fought for your dignity of existence.
At your best stay yourself away from trouble as much as possible. And state your ground. But if they dare to stuff their foot again onto you to hurt you, you have to counter-attack, even kill in order to stop if that should be the case.
It’s a righteous war for everybody to self-protect.
We ain’t no Jesus to sacrifice ourself without righteous cause. Left face got smacked, and let them hit the right face too ?
Raped me once, so rape me twice ? Being righteous in heart and defend for ourself is very important !
Blasphemy not to the Holy Spirit. Our righteousness of soul is our Holy Spirit to fend for, and not to be disgraced.
And besides, “thin”, some fat is delicacy for men. Don’t you ever worry about that. OK !?

hannah93,
too bad, your mother is just a little girl in heart.
May be you just be the adult, finding and choosing for her a good man to discipline her for the time being.
Paul is nice ? Wasn’t there better sound acoustics in the living room than in your mother’s room while they’re making out ?

Bright kids, stupid parents, it just happened.
You are really admirable of have written her the letter. You’ve done your part well.

And don’t overdrink again. The alcohol hurt you, and the liver is related to eyes.
You are too bright to die like that.