I’m tired. I’m tired of trying, crying, sighing, giving, caring and most of all living. I have been on this earth 26 years, I am very unattractive and very undesirable. All my nieces and nephews are enjoying relationships while I sit alone. I have no job and I quit school as well. So I look to just end it all. I no longer wish to live in a world that wasn’t made for me. They say that all men are created equal but then why was I born? Its hard to live knowing that you will always fail, always be alone. So I have made up my mind that this time I will change it, I will finally do something about it and perhaps finally be at peace. Why live a life that doesn’t want you to be part of it? Why live a lie? I hope that I have to courage to go through with this and I hope I finally find acceptance in death’s cold embrace.
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Maybe you should try a dating site and you might find someone that is perfect for you? You never know…
Bubbles is right try a dating site not a suicide site
I’ve tried a dating site and I’ve tried many other things. Its just rough. Thats not my only problem though. Its a major one…and dating sites don’t work.
Tell me about it…dating sites are full of creeps but they seem to work for some..?? Keep trying your still real young…try getting a part time job or volunteering or something, move to a different county, you have nothing to loose, let your imagination run wild…heck do drugs if you have to..b4 u give up just try other shit out..if you find a job get a russian or thai bride, that way you won’t be alone…
I’ve tried so many things. Where I live the economy is horrid so finding a job is like finding a 4 leaf clover. Women don’t like me at all so I don’t even bother. Also I lost my father a little over a year ago and I just don’t even want to try to live. I look and see that the rest of my family looks so much better than me and always make it a point to tell me. I can’t go on vacations with them because its always couples and families only. I have no job so it doesn’t matter anyway. I’ve turned to alcohol and I drink a lot now…but I’ve decided its not worth living if you have to live like this.
Talk to your family and see if they can lend you some money to move to a state where you can find work and then get a woman from one of the russian or thai websites. Your family will be heartbroken if you kill yourself, they just want you to sort yourself out. Women come in all shapes and sizes and if you don’t mind marrying an uglier girl then I am sure you can find one. Alcohol is not the answer unless you go to bars where you can pick up women. Try being more adventurous…explore more..try talking to people you never spoke to, find a homeless woman and invite her to stay at your place and strike up a relationship…be more adventurous..you got nothing to loose..
I actually just came from a state like that. I moved back to help my mother after my father passed. I made good money and had my own place. I was still lonely but it was easier being alone when you had work as a distraction. I actually tried suicide years ago…I didn’t tell anyone either, but it was my father who inspired me to live. Now that he is gone I have no inspiration to do so….I honestly feel that life as a whole has betrayed me. there is something about me that makes people hate me.
I feel hated too, it’s weird…mmm but go back to working and getting your own place and get yourself a girl..change can do wanders for you..
I know the feeling.
It feels like, You’re here for nothing, or your worth nothing?
God put you on this earth, because he knew you could handle it.
and it may not seem like that now, but it will.
Yeah…its constant. It hurts to know that you’ll never be loved or will never have a purpose for living. Being hated and lied on in the family is equally devastating. My nephew asked me an hour ago “why is it that I am so sad and that he thinks I’m gonna commit suicide” I told him no…but in my heart its yes. To live like this is hard and as much as I wanna live…I wanna finally be at peace.