I haven’t been here in a while, but that doesn’t mean anything.
I don’t know what’s wrong now.
I feel…
anxious (for no good reason)
afraid (but not sure of what)
alone (but I have the same number of people to talk to as before)
I keep trying to…
not give up
curl up and disappear (physically)
not self-harm
self-harm as much as I can
understand myself
give up
tell off the offensive
submit to avoid attack
live
die
I don’t know what is going on. Help… Anyone?
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You should call the number displayed on the home page here. Those people are ready to hear you out 24-7, and when you talk to them, consider the things that make you feel the way you do. It really does help you put things in a different perspective or outlook. They are faster in response than us here in the SP Forums. But you can also see who answers to your posts and talk(okay, type) things out with them. It is very important for you to do either one of these things. Then, ask a trusted family member or friend to help you find “professional” help, like a Licensed Clinical Social Worker or Counselor. The truth is, there are many, many people that want to help you be better so you can enjoy your life. I wish you well.
I can’t tell anyone I know. It’ll screw me over even more. No one will understand and I’ll just be even more isolated from everything. I’ll check out the home page, I’m just really afraid they’ll trace my computer somehow or something :/. I don’t want to be reported or anything. I don’t know what would happen, but it makes me nervous :/. Thank you for trying to help me though, if I reconsider your advice will be useful.