Everything I do I end up quitting or giving up on. I have nothing to live for. I mean what is the point. I see a lot of people happy and I see great potential in them to have an amazing life. As much as I wish I could be like them I’m just not and I never will be anything. Other than my family a few close friends I don’t even think people wold care if I died. And I really want to die, but I’m not going to kill myself for two reasons. One, I don’t know how/too scared to do it/don’t want it to hurt. And two, I feel like it would be selfish to just give up. I know everyone has struggles in life, I realize that, and I’m not saying that my stuggles are any worse than anyone else’s but those people just know how to deal with the pain better and they have something to look forward to or something that gives them motivation, not me. It’s not even about how pretty or skinny I am anymore, that’s pain but on such a simple level. I’ve realized that there are much deeper things in life to worry about, but I have NOTHING. I have a few friends (I’m not very social), no hobbies, I do average in school, & no love life. And it’s not even that I’m depressed, I mean sometimes i get in depressed moods, dont we all? But I just overall don’t see the point of living, what’s it for? If all we do is live to die why not just die now?
2 comments
Look. Don`t kill yourself, I know how you feel, because I`ve felt like this too. You`re not the only one. I`m 13 and I feel as though my life isn`t all great or perfect. My parents found out I had a boyfriend and threatened to make me be homeschooled and not see my friends ever again. And then even threatened to cut all my hair off. After that, it was a living hell for me. My parents acted as though I never mattered to them, they made me do all the chores. I soon wanted to die of dehydration. So, I stopped eating and drinking for two days. Once I did, I felt life slowly slipping away from me.
On the third day, I discovered two songs by a band called Blood On The Dance Floor. The songs were called I refuse to Sink and Crucified by your lies. Crucified by your lies made me realize that life DID matter. I just had to live through the events, and never give up on myself.
Just live through the events, and things will get better. Whether you think no one would care or even if your closest friends would care, you still shouldn`t kill yourself. It`s a sin, and you`ll end up in hell after you die. I know how you feel, I respect you for that, since I have felt the same way. Don`t give up in life. Things will get better.
You have no love life?
Well, I don’t either, and yeah, it sucks and hurts.
Many a girls have rejected me for reasons, but what can I do? I’m a high school guy.
Not the most skiniest or pretty girl? Hey, I’m blind, I don’t know what people look like and I’m perfectly fine with that.
You won’t get a happy life? Well, not everyone is happy. People may look like it, but it may not always be true. Use me, as an example, I look always happy but yet I long for love, long for acceptance, etc, etc. We long all of these things if we are human.
If you ever want to talk, just email me.
It’s blindaudio@gmail.com
The point of life? To inspire others, show others the kind and loving person you are, and maybe, to be someone that cares for other? The point of life is simply what you make it.