I didn’t go for 3 reasons:
1. I was too suicidal to function
2. I had a dream about my ex boyfriend last night (the only guy I’ve ever loved). We had a long distance relationship and in the dream, we met for the first time. It was so amazing but in the dream we were actually dating. It would be completely different if we met now..I couldn’t have went to school because if I did, I wouldn’t be able to fake the same smile I usually do.
3. Over half of my grade level went to a trip to Atlanta to see the Braves play and some other stuff so everyone who didn’t go were split up into different homerooms. My homeroom just happens to be with every person in my grade who either hates me, makes fun of me, or thinks I’m a freak. So I ended up sitting alone and listening to them talking about me and laughing about me ALL FUCKING DAY yesterday.