Well i spent most of today thinking about suicide and how i would do it, from research i came to the conclusion i would use helium tank and an exit bag… though i am still thinking about it more in depth before i commit.
I guess you think about people who know you, family and how it will effect them, I have even thought of the song i want played at my funeral. I guess it really related to my life here are some lyrics..
This is my line, this is eternal
How did I ever end up here?
Discarnate, preternatural
My prayers to disappear
Absent of grace, marked as infernal
Ungranted in dead time left me disowned
To this nature, so unnatural
I remain alone
Im tired of the everyday struggle, no one i know is really happy, its all working, paying off a mortgage, I always think that things will be better in the future, leaving me never to be happy in the present.
Well this is all i have to say, thanks.
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I respect you man
Life is really fucked
No one can do anything
Fighting to survive is too much effort
Everything is a con or a scam, to make the average man poorer
insurance, warranty, government, mortgage, marriage, christmas, easter, divorce, arrogant teenagers, Taxes everything
I wish i lived in a time where i could just go claim land, and survive off it
better then the way money is controlling one, no stress, only have to rely on one person
One day there will churches to the dollar
We think the same way, family is all that is stopping me. But sometimes I wish I had some disease and died, with my luck it will happen to a loved one and i will have to live through it.
I want out to.
Got to man up
Do it. got six tanks
Im going to buy one
more wensday I Exit
seven lucky Got to man up
I want out to. Got to man up Do it got six tanks Im going to but one more
Lucky seven then I Exit in 4