You wouldn’t think that the girl that laughs the loudest has the most trouble. She’s secretly so unhappy sometimes. Like a dam breaking emotions would take control of her and make her be unable to break free. This doesn’t happen all the time. She does have some friends that are there for her. Friends that make her laugh and smile, but they don’t know. Nobody knows.
She’s quite pretty actually, a small cute nose, nice lips and big brown eyes. Her body says more, a curvy figure. She would seem perfect to those who just meet her. While she thinks that she is the fattest thing that she has ever seen. She wants to be tall and skinny. Her parents believe that someday she will be fat. She can’t help it that she loves food. She can’t run a mile without sounding like a dying donkey.
People used to text her every night. People like; guys. They used to really like her, but now they avoid her as much as they can. Lesson learned, guys suck.
She used to have a lot of friends, a lot of people that liked her. But things changed, and now she doesn’t. Nobody seems to care as much.
She sometimes questions if it will ever get better.
I want it to get better.
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sometimes perons put into words things i’d never have the guts to say myself
Just typing it might help, that’s what I did.
I don’t mean to be rude at all but, it’s a bit annoying when young people come on this website and begin a post with “You wouldn’t think that a girl/boy like me who [insert self-compliment] would have these problems but…”.
It doesn’t matter what is on the outside, no one can tell someone’s in pain just by their appearance. You can have all of these great qualities but that doesn’t matter if you feel like shit on the inside.
Also, it just sounds supremely self-indulgent when people begin listing how great they are yet they are still so sad as if only ugly and stupid people are affected by depression.
Regarding you post, it seems that you are overly preoccupied with being liked by others. I’m sure people do care about you however sometimes you have to reach out to them. Some may not understand or refuse to listen, but those people don’t matter anyhow. Do what feels right for you and work towards pleasing yourself. If you get depressed every time someone doesn’t fawn over you than you’re going to have a tough life.
I was just writing what was on my mind, I do not think highly of myself and typing those things made me feel ok. I am a very sensitive person and what people thing about me does play an important role in why I get depressed.
I believe you when you say you are not arrogant, Marissa1188, but I enjoy irony so forgive me for pointing out that I think it’s humorous that you said thank you in response to “Whyohwhysky…you’re awesome” when that was clearly a compliment directed at me. Irony is the spice of life. Maybe you need to do a bit of self-reflection, hm?
I read that comment before I read yours so I thought that it was like a sentence directed to me. Way to point out my stupidity. I wrote about the way I look to make myself feel better, I don’t think highly of myself and I used to cut all over my body so thank you for pointing out about what I said. everyone judges
Wasn’t judging you, just pointing out something ironic, hence why I began with “forgive me” so that you’d know I just enjoy a good slice of irony. I’m not sure what you mean by you read his post before mine since I read his comment after I had written my original at which point you had already replied. Semantics though.
Point is, my intention wasn’t to judge you. Frequently, those–including me–who have low self-esteem often vacillate between feeling unworthy and feeling self-righteous. It’s part of feeling victimized. One moment you think you’re a piece of crap, and the next, as a defense mechanism, feel that you are just misunderstood and better than most people. Basically, when we judge ourselves callously, we often do the same to others.
It’s okay to think highly of yourself, don’t confuse that, but I think if you were a bit more honest with yourself you’d see that maybe loving yourself as you are, unsuperficially, is what you truly desire. That is the pain worth fighting through. You’re not stupid; you don’t have to put yourself down to prove to someone else that you are feeling crappy.
You just seemed very critical of what I wrote and my automatic response is to be defensive. I’m sorry. It just seems like you said it very offensively and that’s how I took it. Also, with myself being very suicidal I wasn’t in the mood to have you judge what I wrote.