It all started when I was 17 I started doing drugs and drinking, slowly over the next four years. I have repeatedly fucked up my life though numereous people have tried to help me. For Awhile everything was fine but I have pushed my family away to the point that they disown me. Everytime I get a girl in my life I fall helplessly head over heels an throw my life further down the drain. Doing anything I can to make the woman happy but in the process I neglect everything an everyone else. Just to have the woman leave me in the end.
In September of 2010 I lost my job and my car cause i couldnt afford the car payments, along with my house, now im bouncing from what little friends houses I have left. But alas I have run out of places to stay. I have not been able to find another job though not for the lack of trying. I was hustlin but just about got caught up an ending up in jail. I constantly feel like a mouse backed into a corner buy a cat. Helpless, depressed, emotionally drained, stressin 24/7.
Here recently I have seriously contemplated suicide, I have a tanto that i constantly sharpen. Every night I hold it to my throat an cry. I just can’t believe that this is what my life has come to. Though in my younger years my parents did everything in there power to give me good oppurtunities I have let them down everytime. I just want to end my life an start again.
Please some help me!
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My life is now ruined and my dreams are completely shattered.
I was born intersexed and raised the wrong gender without my permission and had my natural birthright hidden from me for the longest time.
I’ve been largely ignored by everyone. I have been diagnosed with fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue with no known cure.
My wife committed suicide almost 11 years ago. The woman I was hoping to spend the rest of my life with left me in APril of last year, with unpaid bills. I haven’t been able to get hired by anyone. I’ve been screwed over by everyone who was supposed to be my friend, as well as the medical community. I’m in debt, out of money, and my dreams of being a pilot and photographer are unfulfilled. .
I’m sick of being ignored and unwanted.
I’m an attractive female and women don’t even look at me.
My only peace is to end what miserable shell of a life I have, and I plan to do it peacefully
Your new life awaits you. Google jobs for parolees or something. Refineries and places like Salvation Army hire felons for tax breaks. When you get a job, approach your family again. Find a girl that gives you as much as you give her. Keep building up slowly and you’ll find yourself on top again.