Give me an easy way out of this torturous hellish existence or I feel the need to take out the mother fuckers who deny me this basic right. Â Fucking idiots stopping me from killing myself peacefully deserve a long slow torturous death. Â They won’t even allow me a gun. Â Fuck everything about this existence. Â Fuck you modern society. Â FUCK YOU!!!!
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Sorry for this rant I probably sound stupid. I’m just so frustrated by the lack of options in this world..
They should have suicide clinics honestly. Theyd prolly make a ton a money. Dont know why its So stigmatized.
Don’t apologize for feelings. . . There is not easy way out of life. Once you’re gone, you’re gone. Think about all the people you’ve left and how much they would miss you. Your friends, family, acquaintances. How you’ve made an impact on someone’s life that you don’t even know about. If you ever need to talk to someone you can talk to me. I cant say I know how you feel because I don’t. Everyone has different experiences. Don’t let one little thing get into your head and chew you out. Those are the things you need to get off your chest and ask someone for advice, a Pick – Me – Up. You need to know how much potential you really have. Nothing is worth you feeling this way so whatever everyone else says about you negatively just put those two out spoken fingers up and say “fuck you!” because you are better than them and they know it.
@calimike- I agree 100%
@DominosJ- I agree suicide/death isn’t easy even if you have ********. But my mental suffering is so intense and never lets me rest. The only time I’m okay is when I’m asleep. I figure death would be even better than sleeping. My brain is literally torturing itself. I’m going to sleep now I’ll look for your guys replies tomorrow. Take care.
Hey, TupacorBiggie, why do you say suicide isn’t easy even if you have ********? I was counting on that as the guaranteed way out… 🙁
The guaranteed way out is to actually walk out. Put one foot infront of the other and never come back. If nobody loves you, nobody misses you and than noone will look for you. You can start over.
Huh?? Smusmu, is that some kind of cerebral metaphor? I don’t mean to be disrespectful, but I don’t want a metaphorical way out. I want to be dead, but just without any pain, and preferably VERY fast. I don’t want to start over someplace else. Wherever I go, I’ll find other people–people who COULD be warm, but who’d just end up judging me for the animal I happen to be, and excluding and bullying me to make themselves feel better about themselves. Alienation is more painful to me than torture, and yes I’ve been physically beaten often enough to be able to compare the two. Broken ribs heal, but shattered self-image doesn’t. And if one more person tells me how I SHOULD think or what I should do I just might invest in a taser.
I don’t want to play the game of human life–it’s the same damn game EVERYwhere–church, temple, school, work, on the roads, in the cafes, in the philanthropic organizations like Peace Corps, in hospitals, in the court rooms, online–everywhere the same. I’d give every last penny I’ve saved up for a painless and fast way out. That’s the only thing I want anymore. The only damn thing.