Hi..i don’t want to bother or else…so sorry..
It’s just that i am so depressed but i’m not strong enough to live my life just for the people who loves me and too coward to end it. I’d really like to..one or the other..i’ve passed years of insomnia, depression, anxiety and other things like anorexia..i just would like that everything could end..i can’t find a way to make it better and i tryed to put on a mask and be happy, just for them but it was useless..
I live my life at home, can’t go out..and i found this site and begun following you so far and i think i grow up some affection.
I’m Italian so forgive me if i make mistakes..i’m not even trying to write right really..i know that would be bad however.
I know it’s kind of stupid tellin you this..but reading all what you wrote about your decision and everything..i envy you because you settled your mind and are strong enough to do it and in a way i’m happy for you and hope everything will go right.
In the other way i’m so sad. Yesterday i fell asleep..i woke up after hours and hours of sleep this morning and when i saw this post and the time i panicked. We don’t have the same time and you said that you wanted to do it the 15, in the night, so i thought that you already did it and i couldn’t say anything because i’m too scared to post something even if this is not my real name and just for sayng goodbye…i cried(and i usualli do not say that i do)..i don’t want you to die..i don’t know why..maybe..i just..feel that if you die there’s no hope left..and you should not go away or deserve better..i know how much is stupid, i don’t know you and i can’t relate or else, maybe it’s egoistic and i shouldn’t tell you anything but if i think about my being late..
I would really that you could be happy. Even if i’m the kind of person that don’t give a damn about the others usually, if don’t know them. And if i were you,reading this i’d probably do not care or think that i’m just a stupid little girl in a period. (maybe right about the stupid girl)But i hope i could make it in time..and say bye and good luck. Really hope it..and..i’m sorry.
I’m still here, my date is the 16th not the 15th. Think you for your kind words, there not stupid at all they actually mean quite a lot. What do you mean you feel if I die theres no hope left?
An I’m really sorry you also want to end it all, I hate the fact that other people feel like me. I know what it’s like to not ever be able to sleep even when exhausted insomnia truly is a *****.
One more question, at the end you said sorry. What do you have to be sorry for?
oh i’m..so relieved..i don’t really know why i fell so relieved..
and..maybe i feel you are like my part that wants to end it all, and that’s quite big lately. I have some problems of self esteem and i can’t find anything good in me and if even someone like you can’t find another way out..
Maybe that’s why..and i’m sad..
I felt to say sorry for everything maybe. Like i could have bothered you or make you angry or else..or i could have been late and the sorry in that case would have been more for myself because i couldn’t post anything sooner or again i couldn’t say good bye..etc..
It’s everything more complicated than this but i think i couldn’t explain myself better even in my language..that’s disapponting but true.
Sorry it took so long to reply, I was outside watching the sun rise drinking my coffee. I’ve watched the sun come up almost everyday for 4years and it never fails in being truly beautiful.
Why do you want to end it all? And if you can come on a suicide site an speak your mind…well I find that rather courageous and shows just how confident you are. So don’t put yourself down.
An what do you mean “if someone like me can’t find another way out”? An just for the record I’m not angry nor bothered by you or your comments, I really appreciate your kindness and honesty
No problem at all..take your time i too have something to do today so sorry that maybe it’ll took long for me too..beautiful moment however.
Sometimes i just can’t go on..i’m depressed and weak and i think about suicide..i can’t do it anyway because someone will suffer and make someone sad or cry or suffer indeed, is the last thing i’d want to do, expecially if it’s someone i really care about. I don’t really want to talk about it..i’m not here to share..i think that what i said was quite enogh and unuseful. In fact i can’t speak my mind…i was just scared that you did it and forced me to ask. I could have done it in a less dramatic way or just not barge. I overreacted, sorry.
And..i mean that i relate with you… and i think you are a good person and you passed through a lot in your life and i think you are quite intelligent for the little that i know you and etc so better than me.(i’m quite realistic so i say that not to be a victim or to put me down).
And if even someone like you can’t find another way out why sould i try forever..it’s just proving what i was thinking all the time.
Hi, Im Sarah, been reading the posts on here for a while an i have read yours an i know that your going to do that tomorrow because your in a lot of physical pain an you dont want to deal with the pain an medical bills, well i say feck the medial bills worry abt yourself first an bills last and if you end up in a huge debt well u wouldnt be the only one half of us is. If you go through with it i wish with my heart it will be fast an painless and you will find peace/happiness on the other side. I know what its like to be in so much pain u just dont feel like you can go on anymore so i can understand why u feel like u need to do it. Truth is i hope you can find another way through it, I thought things couldnt get beter after 30 years worth of a crappy life but last year or so they have been a bit beter. If you want a freind to talk to my email is iamsara98@yahoo.com
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Hi..i don’t want to bother or else…so sorry..
It’s just that i am so depressed but i’m not strong enough to live my life just for the people who loves me and too coward to end it. I’d really like to..one or the other..i’ve passed years of insomnia, depression, anxiety and other things like anorexia..i just would like that everything could end..i can’t find a way to make it better and i tryed to put on a mask and be happy, just for them but it was useless..
I live my life at home, can’t go out..and i found this site and begun following you so far and i think i grow up some affection.
I’m Italian so forgive me if i make mistakes..i’m not even trying to write right really..i know that would be bad however.
I know it’s kind of stupid tellin you this..but reading all what you wrote about your decision and everything..i envy you because you settled your mind and are strong enough to do it and in a way i’m happy for you and hope everything will go right.
In the other way i’m so sad. Yesterday i fell asleep..i woke up after hours and hours of sleep this morning and when i saw this post and the time i panicked. We don’t have the same time and you said that you wanted to do it the 15, in the night, so i thought that you already did it and i couldn’t say anything because i’m too scared to post something even if this is not my real name and just for sayng goodbye…i cried(and i usualli do not say that i do)..i don’t want you to die..i don’t know why..maybe..i just..feel that if you die there’s no hope left..and you should not go away or deserve better..i know how much is stupid, i don’t know you and i can’t relate or else, maybe it’s egoistic and i shouldn’t tell you anything but if i think about my being late..
I would really that you could be happy. Even if i’m the kind of person that don’t give a damn about the others usually, if don’t know them. And if i were you,reading this i’d probably do not care or think that i’m just a stupid little girl in a period. (maybe right about the stupid girl)But i hope i could make it in time..and say bye and good luck. Really hope it..and..i’m sorry.
I’m still here, my date is the 16th not the 15th. Think you for your kind words, there not stupid at all they actually mean quite a lot. What do you mean you feel if I die theres no hope left?
An I’m really sorry you also want to end it all, I hate the fact that other people feel like me. I know what it’s like to not ever be able to sleep even when exhausted insomnia truly is a *****.
One more question, at the end you said sorry. What do you have to be sorry for?
oh i’m..so relieved..i don’t really know why i fell so relieved..
and..maybe i feel you are like my part that wants to end it all, and that’s quite big lately. I have some problems of self esteem and i can’t find anything good in me and if even someone like you can’t find another way out..
Maybe that’s why..and i’m sad..
I felt to say sorry for everything maybe. Like i could have bothered you or make you angry or else..or i could have been late and the sorry in that case would have been more for myself because i couldn’t post anything sooner or again i couldn’t say good bye..etc..
It’s everything more complicated than this but i think i couldn’t explain myself better even in my language..that’s disapponting but true.
Sorry it took so long to reply, I was outside watching the sun rise drinking my coffee. I’ve watched the sun come up almost everyday for 4years and it never fails in being truly beautiful.
Why do you want to end it all? And if you can come on a suicide site an speak your mind…well I find that rather courageous and shows just how confident you are. So don’t put yourself down.
An what do you mean “if someone like me can’t find another way out”? An just for the record I’m not angry nor bothered by you or your comments, I really appreciate your kindness and honesty
No problem at all..take your time i too have something to do today so sorry that maybe it’ll took long for me too..beautiful moment however.
Sometimes i just can’t go on..i’m depressed and weak and i think about suicide..i can’t do it anyway because someone will suffer and make someone sad or cry or suffer indeed, is the last thing i’d want to do, expecially if it’s someone i really care about. I don’t really want to talk about it..i’m not here to share..i think that what i said was quite enogh and unuseful. In fact i can’t speak my mind…i was just scared that you did it and forced me to ask. I could have done it in a less dramatic way or just not barge. I overreacted, sorry.
And..i mean that i relate with you… and i think you are a good person and you passed through a lot in your life and i think you are quite intelligent for the little that i know you and etc so better than me.(i’m quite realistic so i say that not to be a victim or to put me down).
And if even someone like you can’t find another way out why sould i try forever..it’s just proving what i was thinking all the time.
Thanks, i’m glad i didn’t offend you or else..
Hi, Im Sarah, been reading the posts on here for a while an i have read yours an i know that your going to do that tomorrow because your in a lot of physical pain an you dont want to deal with the pain an medical bills, well i say feck the medial bills worry abt yourself first an bills last and if you end up in a huge debt well u wouldnt be the only one half of us is. If you go through with it i wish with my heart it will be fast an painless and you will find peace/happiness on the other side. I know what its like to be in so much pain u just dont feel like you can go on anymore so i can understand why u feel like u need to do it. Truth is i hope you can find another way through it, I thought things couldnt get beter after 30 years worth of a crappy life but last year or so they have been a bit beter. If you want a freind to talk to my email is iamsara98@yahoo.com