i wonder what its like to do suicide.
just thinking makes me want to do it, everyday
is the same you never know what might happen,
i lost my best friend because he commitied suicide
i want to follow him ever since i was 10 i wanted to
die. Why me? why do i feel so upset all the time,
i have brill friends and family but im a waste of space
no- one needs a broken friend or daughter.
why me? why did i have to get beaten and get broken
to the girl i am today im only 14 and ready to die
this is my story but i dont want it to be. i want the pain gone
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I feel the same, broken and in so much pain. I am twice your age and have felt this way ever since I could remember. Life does get better. But it also gets worse. It gets harder and easier at the same time. There is so much to experience, yet so many days are exactly the same. I am really sorry about your friend. I can imagine you might feel like you were abandoned, left behind. My heart goes out to you and I hope you can find strength to get help. I am finally doing after so many years. I am still hoping it will get better for me, but I should have reached out long ago. Things might be better if I had.
“no- one needs a broken friend or daughter”
Wrong. Lots of people need a broken friend: Other broken people. Indestructible lucky people almost never understand the broken ones, and can often be quite cruel and insensitive to their plight.
If your parents are even halfway-decent people, they need their daughter, even if she is a broken daughter. Parents are in a unique position where, you being broken is one of the worst things that can happen to Them, but they would rather have broken-you, than not have you at all. You might be too young and in-crisis to understand that right now… but be patient. Things tend to start making more sense, if you give it enough time. Most of us don’t get to choose all the events and circumstances of our lives. We can’t control what other people do, and we can’t change the past… but, we Can choose what we do about today, and all the tomorrows that remain.
thank you for giving me hope that my friends and family still need me.
i will try my hardest that i will stay strong thank you so much guys that you have cared so much thank you, i think you guys are finally talking sense into me but it is really hard i just want to love someone who i can trust not to judge me.