well some people say i am really out going and that i should not cut myself but i cant help it!! the hole reason i do thatt is because my little sister died. the story is that i was baby sitting her and we where reading a book and some one broke into are house and we where hiddinng and the guy took her and killed her and i blame myself for it and so do my parents do to it all my falt and i no it so if she coulnt have a happy liffe i cant either because ever one in my family blames me and i blame myself to. my life sucks as hell not only do i cut myself my brother ddose it to because he thinks that everone hates him and no one ever wanted him in this life but he is the only one i look up to and thats another reason why i look up to him and i fallow in his footsteps and so if i do that means i am going to die when i am 13 who ever new that a 12 year old girl cuts herself already!!!! please help me give me somthing to think about and no go in my brothers steps and hang myself because thats were i am looking in my futrue!!!
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I feel for you. Please email me. My email is, jamiesholar247@gmail.com. I hope to talk with you soon.
You have to talk to a guidence couselor. You should call 911 or 1-800-suicide and tell them what’s wrong. Your family shouldn’t blame you for what happened to your sister and neither should you, that’s the first problem that needs to be resolved. It wasn’t your fault.
Sweetheart, you were put on this earth to make sunshine and make people happy. What happened is in no way your fault. Some people express their own guilt in a way where it appears they are blaming you and in this case no one is guilty. Get some help because you were made to be here as a friend or a sibling or a child or partner to someone who God has already chosen for you. There will be happier times but you have to allow for them to happen. My daughter killed herself on December 29, 2010 and didn’t wait for that to happen don’t do the same thing
“Help Me”, This is my first time to write on this site. I hope I respond to you only in a way that is helpful. Reading your words, I want to ask you a question; Do you THINK or FEEL or KNOW your parents are blaming you or are you blaming yourself? Have your parents actually said something like they blame you? The rational answer is no one is responsible or to blame for any of this but the violator that did this horrible deed…..right. But our minds are not always rational when it comes to our feelings….part of the tragedy ; is when an innocent victim that survives violence (meaning you), can become very confussed from the overwhelming feelings (survivor guilt) which is difficult to process. It seems you may need to express these feelings to your parents and get it out in the open; “How you feel”. I believe beyond your sorrow and grief of lose of your sibling; GUILT for living through such an event is causing all of this mass confusion of feelings you and your entire family are going through. Your parents are probably feeling guilty too; I would as a parent. It is extremely important for all of your family to seek long term counseling after such a malicious terrifying violent act.
I am 56 y.o. and know that negative/tragic events from my childhood left me with deep seed permanently feelings of unrealistic shame, guilt, feeling helpless, multiple negative feelings about myself that have taken years for me to only discover and ackowledge, brave enough to even say to myself or another person and on to the next step to begin to understand all of these feelings and why I felt this way. Learning to cope with a feeling and live with the feeling and let it rest. It’s like swimming; you don’t fight the water you learn to go with it., you become part of the water and work with the water…that’s what I’ve learned about feelings is trying not to fight them but to accept them for wht they are sometimes put them in their own package and put them on a shelf so I can go on in life. I know that sound a bit shallow perhaps. This is limited space and time; I am giving you tiny bits to help start put things in place for you to take back control of your life.
The last thing I want to leave with you is that I think you have a lot of courage to tell the truth about what is really going on in your life. I hope this helps if you read this; I don’t know how a family survives after this type of tragedy without critical counseling…..please talk to your family. xoxo
thanks people….after reading everthing that you put it made me think about why should i do this and yes my parents have told me it is my fault and i no it is and thats all i have to say about it i should of have him take me not her she was all i had in my life she was like a little me doing everthing i did when i was her age. i still regret doing it but i still think about doing it:/