Holy crap, I just went through the fastest mood swing I have ever heard of. I went from depressed, to manic, to depressed again. All while feeling suicidal. It has not even been a full twenty-four hours. First depressive phase was like all sad and fun stuff like that. Then it was like I had the best stimulant in the world. I could not stop smiling and planning out a really unlikely way of killing myself. Then the depression came back and I was like. That would never work. How delusional could I be. More than delusional though was the sense of being just better than everyone in every way almost. It was very odd. I mean I have been diagnosed bipolar in the hospital but never really stuck and I have only been on anti depressants. Still it is unfortunate that my mania did not last. It would have been very interesting to see how my plan would have worked out.

After all that though I kind of levelled out and now I have a much more sensible plan, should I ever feel like it.