I told my therapist the truth about my suicidal thoughts and what they call tendencies. I told her how I planned my recent attempt 2 months in advanced and how the day before my set date, I had what I can definitely say was the worst anxiety attack I have ever had that led me to thinking somehow that overdosing would be a quieter method. Needless to say I failed and the 2 weeks after were filled with physical pain, alcohol and self -harm. I told her that a month after my attempt, I can’t talk about it. The words do not come out of my mouth. I told her that now, a month after my attempt, I don’t feel any different.
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I’m glad you’re still here… and it’s good that you’re seeing a therapist. Perhaps you’ll be able to talk about it at some point. That might help you develop a strategy for dealing with how you feel. Perhaps this is an opportunity of sorts for you.
I’m curious what your therapist had to say… if you want to share.
Rekily my suicide attempt was with a lot of rat poison.. I set date to..
You are brave for telling your therapist I think. And I hope bringing it out like that will help make things better or you.
I agree talking to a therapist is bold. I could never do such a thing. I don’t know maybe because my view of them are biased. However, I would also like to know what she said. I don’t like them because I think they are in bed with big pharmaceutical companies and probably get a kick back or bonus based on how many people they get medicated. I’m not saying this is true about all of them I just have a natural suspicion about them. I think most of us can relate with the shell feeling. I can’t really offer any advice all I can say is that I empathize with you because I suffer from the same predicament.
It took me a very long time to reply to this because she obviously got scared and sent me back to the hospital for a monitor in medicine. She told me I am brave for telling her the truth. She figures that I do a pretty good job at opening up and when I feel bad- at my lowest- that I’ll do the right thing. She told me she wants to see growth and change in me and is happy to help me get there but that the first step is being honest. I