I’ve literally once heard someone at school refer to me as “The girl with all the issues”
My best friend ask me why I dropped out of school and became homeschooled. I lied to her and told her it’s because I wanted to work ahead.
In reality, I dropped out of school because it physically hurts me to be around people. When I’m out in public, I have to use up my energy to try and focus on myself and not my surroundings. If I don’t, I become hypersensitive. I hear everything. I hear every voice, every footstep, every movement. It’s horrible, it feels like everyone’s screaming at me, When I’m in class, I can’t concentrate because everything’s too loud, too much movement.
What’s wrong with me?
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I know what you mean im the same way too
How do you deal with it? How do you make it stop? Because it physically drains me.
i was the same way. i just blocked it out. homeschooled most of my life though. can’t say which was worse having absolutely no social contact or always being surrounded by people. gotta choose the lesser of two evils.
Does it physically hurt you?
For me it’s not necessarily the people, it’s the fact that my brain takes in everything
i have mad ADHD and all the stimuli would overwhelm my senses. sensory overload. did my tests in separate room at times. never physically hurt me although it did stress me out a lot.
Wow! I hear all of you, what you’re saying. I’ve recently been dwelling on the same, and I’m probably much older than you. I told someone a few days back that I think it’s an evolutionary change in humans that we haven’t quite bridged yet, a step toward telepathy.
Have any of you read Octavia Butler, the scifi novelist? This is what she writes about in Wild Seed and Mind of my Mind.
You are genetically the future but not quite there, in the suffering stage before maturation.
I sympathize. I feel the same, as if other people are radios not quite tuned in to a station, so much static that it makes me want to leave and be alone. But then I’m so lonely.
I care about you and hope you survive.
I’m the same way- tho not as extreme as you. I’ve only recently found out there’s actually a term out there called, “highly sensitive people.” There are books on it and there’s even an acronym now- HSP.
It makes life a living hell when you’re super sensitive to everything around you, and no one understands. Everyone just wants us to “deal with it” or they tell you to “not let it bother you” but it’s not that easy.
Perhaps that’s why I love cats so much. They are super sensitive too. And they love me because I understand.