I know people have it worse off than me. I know that.. but still I just can’t take it anymore. I just can’t. I’m fighting a battle that I can’t win. I’m sorry I’m so weak and a burden. I don’t even know why I’m typing this. I need to die soon. I need to do the world a favor right? I’m nothing more than garbage. Garbage needs to be thrown away. So I just need to get up the courage to throw out the trash myself.
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Being depressed is not a weakness, it is a real disease. It eats awaya t people and makes us do things that we usually would not dream of doing.
You are not a burden and if anybody says that to you they are not worth your time. You are typing because you are hoping that there is something left to fight for… we do not know what the future holds. I look at it as a movie that starts slow and not very interesting, you want to walk out on it but you dont, you stay till the end because you want to know what happens… Its not always rubbish, sometimes it suprises you.
Please do not put yourself down. I am here for you x
Thank you very much for even replying to me. But I don’t think I have a future. I’m scared of it. Scared of what will happen to me now. And I just don’t want to live anymore because my heart hurts so badly. I’m so tired of crying. I’ve tried getting help for depression but it didn’t work. Nothing worked. And I believe that I myself am a burden. I do nothing but take up air, space, and food. I’m sorry for being so negative. Thank you for your kindness though.
I understand the negativity, its part of it. Why wouldn’t I reply to you. You are just as important as the next. I have been on the site today for about 5 hours and have typed and typed. I want to be here for people.
Right now I am afraid to log off incase someone asks for help and no one takes the time to give them a simple hello or smile. I want to be here for you. For you to have someone to talk to. You are no burden on me, I do not know you, I just know where you are with your feelings. You are not alone. x
Yes I read your story. I’m so sorry that you had to go through that. I can’t imagine the pain you went through. I have never lost someone and if someone looked at my life they’d say I have the world. But still I feel so much pain and I feel so alone. No one would think that I feel this way. No one knows that I want to commit suicide. I don’t want to trouble anyone. And I laugh and smile to cover everything up. I feel like I’m drowning on the inside though and there’s no hope. I’ve tried living day by day to see if things would get better and hoping that it would. But I’m still so disappointed. I’ve given up. I’m at least glad I got to meet you though. Thank you again. You’re a very kind person. I wish others were like you.
I am gald you have never lost someone that way. It is something I dont wish on my worst enemy.
I had the world too. There are many people out there that have bad lives, that doesnt mean we cannot too feel depressed. Everybody is different. We all react in different ways to different situations. You should never think any less of yourself just because you feel you have had a good life. Seems to me you are beating yourself up more because of that.
You said no one knows that you want to commit suicide. Tell someone, tell anyone. The more that know, the less of a burden it is on your shoulders. You should not have to feel this way alone, there are people like me out there that care, that want to listen to you. Take it from me, my dad didnt tell anyone and now he is gone… I can only imagine how alone he felt in the moments before he left us. I dont want you to feel that.
It is my pleasure to be here. x