Often times, parents try to set the best example for their kids. If you set a good example, and teach your kids about morals, manners, and respect, they’ll turn out great, right?
My mother was bipolar, a recovering alcoholic, and extremely paranoid. She killed herself when I was four.
Now, I’m 17.
My father is a successful school supervisor and is married to a lovely woman. They have two adorable children together.
My older brother works in an office and is getting married.
My sister lives in Mexico with her husband and is enjoying life.
The difference between me and them? I found my mother in the basement when she killed herself. I’m the one with PTSD. I’m the only one who tested positive for BPD.
I have so many things wrong with me. PTSD, Bipolar disorder, OCD, paranoia, anxiety, clinical depression, social anxiety,
I’m so scared. I’m so terrified that I’ll turn out like her.
What if one day I have a family? A handsome husband and adorable children. Will I be happy, or will I throw it all away like she did? I don’t want to be responsible for anyone else’s pain, so I guess I’ll just push through everything by myself.
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Don’t focus too much on the future. Focus on the present because that’s what matters the most now.
It is ridiculous that you have been made to feel like you have to live up to insane standards in order to deserve happiness, to deserve a partner.
We’re just people and we screw up and make mistakes and we’re different and have strengths and weaknesses, and that should be okay.
That unspoken culture that we have to be beautiful, well-groomed, brainy workaholics with white smiles, thousands of Facebook friends, etc. is killing us off.
We have to learn to love one another as we are.
I feel you. I feel you baby.
@muspelhem:
“It is ridiculous that you have been made to feel like you have to live up to insane standards in order to deserve happiness, to deserve a *p-art-ner.
We’re just people and we screw up and make mistakes and we’re different and have strengths and weaknesses, and that should be okay.
That unspoken culture that we have to be beautiful, well-groomed, brainy workaholics with white smiles, thousands of Facebook friends, etc. is killing us off.
We have to learn to love one another as we are.”
But we DO “have to live up to insane standards,” because “the other” is who decides to give permission for their own companionship.
And we DO “have to be beautiful, well-groomed, brainy workaholics with white smiles, thousands of Facebook friends, etc.” or we will get disregarded and not-selected…
And that that “is killing us off” is the point of this all being perpetuated by the media.
This is all by design, and some parents who have bought into it, are treating their own children exactly how the eugenicists command.
And there is nothing we can do about it, when people have already decided not to understand otherwise.
Isn’t it /disgusting/?