closer

Im getting closer now. First I have some more thoughts to sort out including, if I’m going to give up because I know theres no light at the end of the tunnel and I’m in pain then why not get revenge first? Second since I have tried pills and carbon monoxide and failed, since I’m to scared of jumping, shooting, or anything to sudden or violent and since I always stop the blood before its to late than I’m going to try an experiment. I have done a little research. First they say that a person can go weeks without food but only 3 to 5 days with food and water so I plan on laying in my bed without food and water for as long as I can. My research says that its not painful. Wish me luck.