I’ve suffered from insomnia for over a year, but over the past few months it’s gotten worse. I can’t sleep at night. I just can’t. If it’s dark out, I won’t sleep.
I sleep for about 3 hours max every night. On weekdays, I fall asleep around 5 and wake up at 6:30. On weekends, I sleep an extra hour. I can’t even sleep with the lights on.
I’ve taken sedatives, I’ve meditated, I’ve tried going three days without sleep to exhaust myself and nothing works. My brain fights everything.
I hate you, PTSD. You’ve taken everything from me: My happiness, my childhood, my sanity. The least you could do is let me sleep.
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“Sleep”. Your title has one word but it means so much… I feel your pain. I’m kinda in the same situation. Honestly, you can say that I barely even sleep. When I do, is under pills. I take naps then I wake up is usually in fear. I slept tonight.. Then woke up at 2am… Then slept for 30 minutes and hey, I’m here again.
Me too :/
I used to take Unisom (Benadryl aka diphenhydramine HCl) but my body built up a tolerance. This new stuff Ambien works pretty good but it’s expensive. Something else you can try, I just discovered, is drinking coffee like a fish all day, I’m talking 20-25 cups, and when you finally stop at night your body will crash.
I actually don’t recommend ANY of this (I personally believe chemicals make everything worse in the long run) but sometimes you just gotta say screw it.
Something I do recommend: have an exhausting workout, like run 5 miles, then when you get back eat a ton of protein. Your body will divert your entire blood supply to your stomach to digest the protein and it’ll knock you out harder than a punch from Mike Tyson.
Yay. Follow my wonderful health advice and you’ll be exactly like me :/
I hope you guys figure something out. Insomnia + depression are a fatal combination.
Sorry you have insomnia, its horrible! an i think its one of the main reasons i have been so moody and depressed again. I always did have problems with it once in a while but not often and back then it was mostly caused from nightmares but after i was on antidepressants and antiphsychotics for over a year and got off them its so bad!! I think they have completly messed up my sleep permenantly, every night i lay in bed awake for hours and hours, sometimes i lay in bed awake all night and not sleep at all and can be awake anywhere from 24 hours to over 48 hours before i sleep, i really think those pills have done something to me.
I took ambien that stuff had me out cold for hours and hours, too much time. I have your probably, I’m always up till 5 or 6am and no matter what I always get up at exactly 9am, ever since I was 11 I’ve been like that 😠try Benadryl first its a little bit of an easier start
Problem* ^ wtf -.-
@Iamsara,
It’s the worst, isn’t it?
I’m pretty heavily medicated and I hate it. I’m bipolar, so I can’t really experiment with other medication, as it throws me off and triggers mood swings. I’ve tried everything and I just can’t sleep.
Quitting daily use of marijuana and cigarettes has helped me tremendously. Although it’s hard to admit, because I still want to smoke all the time. My body thanks me though. It feels good. Like a hug from someone you love. Yourself.
me too.. 🙁 But mine is not as bad as yours.. i get tiered, very tiered by the end of the day.. i try and go to sleep.. but ends up waking up again in an hour or so.. i spend time staring at the dark ceiling, or counting the sheep, i loose the track and start counting again.. sometimes i fall asleep just like that.. sometimes i dont.. i cant remember the last time i had a sound uninterrupted sleep, with out the wake patterns in between..:(