Random

I don’t know why, but there’s this emptiness inside of me that’s carving me out from the inside and leeching through my skin. I don’t understand it though. I’ve had a really nice day, and then bam. I want to curl up and cry, slicing my skin each time a tear escapes. I got a detention a few days ago for something stupid, and school has become hell. I don’t remember what it’s like to have an actual weekend, let alone life because I’ve been going back and forth between people’s houses while my dad looks for one of our own. I don’t think my boyfriend understands my random vacancy. He asks me why, and I don’t know how to answer him. I’ve been reading the letters my mother sent to me before she died, and I’m not sure about that either. I feel like most of my friends have abandoned me, and on top of that I go to high school next year. I didn’t think last year could get any worse, but this year is way more suffocating. My teachers hate me, and I don’t understand why. I’m one of the most quiet kids in the class, while there are rowdy football players. they don’t get yelled at, but I do, and they never listen! I just wish I knew why I felt so empty…I was so happy about an hour ago…